Dog Training.

Why does it seem that all of the greatest stereotypes and cliches seem to be the truest? Is there really someone for everyone? Are all men dogs? Are all gays bitchy--on some level or another? Most of these things we call truth, we say that they are far and wide facts, things that you justhave to deal with while you're alive. I'm just wondering if its true though, some of the things that we tell ourselves. (More specifically about men. Are all men dogs?) Take Matt for example, sure, he seemed like a great guy, sure he's saying all of the right things, but do I really want to go back there, go back to that place and put myself in the way of danger? I'm not smitten with him, but if he's going to be only one hour away, why not? Weekends at his place, spending time together, and who knows, I might even overcome my fear of driving in Texarkana. Maybe it could turn into something good, but who knows, I refuse to live in a world of maybes, I lived in that world for far too long. That is what always get me into these kinds of messes, every sentence comes out at "Maybe he'll. . . " or "Maybe we'll . . ." or "Maybe it could . . . " Maybe exists because the abolutes, the facts, are too hard to face.

Matt says that he hasn't been with anyone in four months, that's right around the time taht we stopped talking. He says that he's been tested and that he's negative. And for me . . . maybe that's enough. He's clean, he (said he) hasn't been with anyone else. But I feel like maybe that's a lie. And if it is a lie, if he is tricking me, but I'm aware of it, then does it matter? I'm not in love with him, I barely like him, but I still have this connection to him that I thought that I had severed. He's starting his life, and maybe he's finally decided to grow up. If he has, then that is great, and maybe I could get with that. But if not . . . am I ready to make concessions just to be with someone who wants to be with someone else? Would I be able to accept an open relationship? It feels like that's what people do when they want to keep a whore. If you tell them that its okay and that they can "play together and play seperately" it just makes it okay not to be monogamous. And to me, monogamy is something that I won't budge on. I don't know, it has the potential to go south, but it also has the potential to be my first (actual) relationship.

No paper gangsters, no coin operated boys, no crazies, douchebags or assholes, etc. Just . . . real.

Comments

[EmilyRUN]

As far as all men being dogs, I would have to disagree.  I've come across my fair share of guys who are simply remarkable.  The only thing is that they may lack traits that people typically label as required before they consider dating them, such as strong social skills and good looks.  A lot of the time, the guys who the populace deem "undateable" are the guys who are actually the best to date.

[Gervais Maguire]

[this is good] Also that we would do without your brilliant idea